you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Monday, July 26, 2010
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10:43 AM
hello blogger!
so long didnt blog le . . . . is like for year urh?
anyway, was busy with stuff and projects so didnt get to blog . . . .
after for so long . . . . . ii think is time for me to give up on him le bahs . . .(NOEL ONG ZHENG HAO) didnt know that the promise ii've made to myself, end up are all dreams and white lies . . . . life got to move on after all cos what ii got so many advice was, there are still lots of better teas outside, why should ii continue to waste my time on him?
The problem is ii had fallen for him for about goin to a year le . . how could ii just let this feeling go off just like that? Time will shows everything . . . I guess so? :D
anyway, recently ii've knew this guy cal sir han . . . . he was cute and everythin. . . we got the same interest . . . . i guess so? do yous think ii kinda of fallen for him? IDK! hahs:D
strange is my love life always complicated . . . . .
once ii found someone that is better, my heart will goes to that person.
HAIS! i just can't make the decision right . . . . think ii should just change and make my decision firm and right! can't go on like that no more.
think ii go sleep le..
It's time for me to sleep le
Zzzzzzzzz NIGHTS everybody.~~~~
with loves:
Pauline CHLOE C. shu ping :D
27th July 2010
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Monday, February 15, 2010
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11:47 PM
heyys everybody..
happy chinese new year to ur(:
today was a no meaningful day for miies
· Been Woke up by my mum in the morning at 10am jus to look for my dog leash.
· Brush my teeth
· Seat in the living room watch television
· Got beaten by my mum at 11.30am…):
· Cold wars with my parents…
· Writing blog now
this is how my life is almost everyday... ): hais...... life to mi is like sux! sux till the core... almost everybody had left miies.. ii sense it! wad ii know now wad is the most important thing in my life... is money$$$$... without money nothing is possible.. and it's truth... friendship, relatives,closest ppl, relationship has nothing to do with miies in my life anymore... really! ii getting more and more tired already... and who ii really trust is mi my own self... really..! ii canns trust no one anymore.. not even friends, boyfriends(even if ii would have one) and family... cos euus never know one day they might betray euus without knowing... ii have been through so ii know... like wad ppl always say not the ppl around is enemies... euus urself is always the enemies... remember that!
no one cans really help euus when euus are in need.. only euus urself! really....
currently ii been having a bad headache after my mum beaten my head this morning... and it's terrible.. hais... ii reallt wish that ii could jus end my life like that.. cos ii'm living a terrible life man! )))))))))))))))))))))))))):
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, January 22, 2010
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6:44 AM
today goes to school as usual, but ii didnt attend my PE lesson.. OH HORS! NAUGHTY MI!! but ii did attend the hair cutting lesson lorhs.. and ii wanns to COMPLAINT! today hair cutting lesson was TOOOOOOOOOO sux le.. LOLs.. today ii learn how to cut concave today((: but ii didnt cut that well.. cut wrongly alot of time lorhs.. haiis.. useless miies): but is okays.. ii told myself that slowly learn and ii one day surely will sucess de!^^ during lesson damn noise and irritated lorhs.. some of my mates go around and cut other ppl's fake hair.. in the end....., ms ang went insane.. scolding & scolding & scolding.. hahas! blaming us for not treasure wad she had done for us.. haiis): the is my lecturer! so shuai! wad she knows only know how to complaint complaint complaint scold scold scold....!
end sch le, went back home.. feeling not well lorhs.. keep having headache and keep vomiting): it have been already 1 week plus le still the same.. hais):
and tml ii will be working! *ARRRRRR* sian ehhs): life is so bored but challenging! and ii like challenging(: hahas! waiting for my next pay to come real soon! $414 faster come to miies! hahas LOLS..
oh ya darling and darling-in-law de anniversary coming le... they gonna organise some games at sentosa on 07 feb and ii still thinking whether goin anot.. cos of some reason lahs.. if he's goin then ii go..!! (understand)? LOLs... if he never go then go there also no point.. so many couple except miies): is like.. hmmm being left out lorhs.. hais): ii dunn like the feeling lorhs.. go there also no point.. right right right? might as well stay home sleep.. hais. justin(darling in law) say he will give miies an answer real soon.. but should ii put all my hope on it...? or no? maybe no.. cos he might gives alot of reason like, got to go church..!! cannot cannot.. or got to chiong for studies.. JC yr 2 liao ehhs!! cannot go!! or maybe more worst... my dad dunn allow miies go! haiis.. ii really dunno ehhs..
ii have been thinking should ii continue or give up?
To blog reader of mine(:
if euus know wad ii'm talking about, euus should know wad ii mean....
it really hate the feelings nw.. REALLY! haiis):
think shall end here.. will update when ii comes online...... <3 him(****)
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
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12:50 AM
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.
You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You.">
LIFE IS SO BORING AND LIFELESS WITHOUT HIM...
II HEARTS EUUS(:
HE IS COMING BACK ON 7TH JANUARY! YAY(: HAHAS... CANT REALLY WAIT FOR THE DAY TO COME BUT SAD TO SAY THAT EVEN THOUGH HE IS BACK ON THAT DAY HE CANT COME FOR THE COUNTDOWN WITH MIIES, JUSTIN AND DARLING(JIAJIA).. SAD RIGHT?
BUT TIMES REALLY FLY FAST.. SOON "2010" IS COMING SOON IN ABOUT 3DAYS TIMES.. WOW!~ WAS THINKING THAT WAD WILL GOIN TO HAPPEN IN THE YEAR 2010? WILL BAD LUCK FALLS ON MIIES? MORE HURTS WILL COME TO MIIES? HAIIS.. II DUNN EVEN DARE TO THINK OR IMAGINE ABOUT IT COS IT IS FATE WHO HAD ALREADY DECIDE FOR MIIES AND II CANT CHOOSE ): REALLY HOPE NICE THINGS WILL FALLS ON MIIES... THINK II WILL JUS END HERE.. COS II NOW DAMN SHACK! AFTER DOIN LOTS OF HOUSEHOLD CHORE......
*TIRED*
WILL WAIT FOR HIIM DE(:
II<3EUUS****
*HUGS*
you are my past ; now, im my everything
Friday, December 25, 2009
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6:03 AM
OFFCIALLY MIISSING HIM NO.19DAYS....
TODAY IS THE NO.19DAYS THAT II MIISSED HIIM...
EVER SINCE HE WENT TO EUROPE, OR MAYBE CANNS SAY BEFORE HE GOES TO EUROPE, II HAVE ALREADY MIISSED HIIM.. II CANT HELP BY DOIN THIS COS II THINK II HAVE FALLEN FOR HIIM... TODAY IS HIS BIRTHDAE AND II WAS WONDERING HOW IS HE NOW? MIISSED HIM LOTS LOTS.. REALLY! AND EUUS KNOW WAD? II HAD ALREADY PREPARED HIS BIRTHDAE PRESENT AND READY TO GIVE HIM ONCE HE'S BACK.. CANT REALLY WAIT FOR THAT DAY TO COME.. HAHAS!
MY FIRST IMPRESSION ON HIM:
WHEN II FIRST SAW HIM, THAT WAS WHEN JUSTIN AND DARLING(JIAJIA) FIRST BROUGHT MI TO HIS TUITION PLACE IS AT ORCHARD PLAZA. BUT BEFORE THAT II, JUSTIN AND DARLING WE WERE AT ORHCARD CENTRAL WAITING FOR TIME TO PASS. WHEN IT REACHED ABOUT 9PM? WE WENT TO ORCAHRD PLAZA JUST TO PICK HIM UP AFTER HIS TUITION... THAT TIME WE WERE LIKE PARENTS PICKING UP OUR OWN "SON" LOLS..! HAHAS... AFTER THAT WE PICKED HIM UP, WE DECIDE TO GO JUST ACIA TO HAVE OUR DINNER FIRSTLY WE WENT TO DHOBY GHAUT THERE BUT IT WAS REALLY FULL! SO WE DECIDED TO GO PASIR RIS TO HAVE IT..
WHEN WE REACHED PASIR RIS, WE WALKED TO EHUB DE JUST ACIA.. THE CROWED THERE WAS MUCH MORE BETTER THEN DHOBY.. SERIOUS! HAHAS.. WHEN WE GO IN AND SEAT, DIDNT EXPECT HE WILL SEAT BESIDE MIIES EHHS! MAYBE IS BECOS WE ARE SEATING A FOUR SEATED PLACE? COS JUSTIN SEAT BESIDE DARLING AND NO PLACE LEFT SO HE SEAT NEXT TO MI? HAIS WHATEVER LAHS.. LOLS... SO WHEN HE SEATED BESIDE MI, MY HEART WENT PUMP DAMN FREAKING HARD LIKE GOIN TO COME OUT OF MY MOUTH LE.. SO SHY LORHS.. II FELT DAMN HOT LAHS.. HAHAS BUT IS OKAY.. II LIKE THE FEELING..
AFTER WE HAD ATE FINISH OUR DINNER WE TOOK BUS HOME.. II AND JUSTIN AND DARLING TOOK BUS 21 AND POOR HIM HE WAITED THE BUS WITH US.. XIN KU NI LE! (: ANYWAY THANKS ARGHS.. SO THIS IS HOW II FEEL WHEN THE II MET HIM THE FIRST TIME.. THE FEELINGS WERE GREAT! CANT REALLY FORGET HOW IS IT...(:
BUT NOW HE IS IN EUROPE, SO CANT GET TO SEE HIM UNTIL NEXT MONTH 7JAN.. REALLY MIISSED HIM FOR SURE!
ANYWAY THANKS JUSTIN FOR INTRODUCING HIM TO MIIES.. REALLY GREAT TO KNOW HIM. AFTER KNOWING HIM II SOMEHOW KNOW WAS IS THE FEELING OF LOVE... MAYBE? HAHAS...
II WANN HIM TO COME BACK REALLY SOON! COS II REALLY MISSED HIM.. CANT WAIT TO SEE HIM AND PASS HIM THE PRESENT..
WILL MIISS HIMM EVERYDAY WITHOUT FAIL(:
3 WORDS, 8 LETTERS, 1 MEANING: I <3 EUUS!(NOEL) OFFCIALLY MISSING HIM!
(THIS SECRET LOVE STORY WILL GOES ON AND ON.. TILL THE DAY END...)
you are my past ; now, im my everything
